I used to go through the most difficult times of my life without ever telling anyone.
Many years ago I was stuck in pornography and contemplating some drastic decisions. (Ones that would have derailed my life and family.) When people asked me how I was doing, I put a very convincing smile on my face and said, “Great!! How are you?”
They believed me.
Meanwhile, I was buried in shame, addiction, self-hatred, and feeling like God didn’t see me or care that I was in such agony even though I continually begged Him to set me free. Read more
For the last several years, I have been dealing with chronic Lyme and other issues that were misdiagnosed for years. This has limited me in ways that has caused me to feel incredible disappointment, especially in my role as a mom.
You might not know this about me unless you were in my life observing what you can’t often see on the surface. We all have things like that in our lives. (Some people can be very quick to tell me why I’m not healed yet and what I’m doing wrong, which is why I have learned to normally just stay quiet about stuff like this.)
There are times I feel physically ok. During those times, I put so much pressure on myself to accomplish all I can – because I don’t know how long it will last. Read more
It almost seems funny to talk about resting this time of year. Resting can seem like a nice idea, but not too realistic. Whether we’re talking about physically resting – or maybe even mentally or emotionally – both can seem daunting at times.
Do you know that there is a way for us to rest, despite what’s going on around us?
To be honest, this is something I am still working on. I can make the decision to rest physically when I need to, but resting my emotions and trusting them with God (instead of worrying or striving) can be a big challenge for me. I am a thinker, and my mind tends to run all day long.