“Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty. I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.” (Psalm 91:1-2).
I remember a time when a situation in my life blew up and caused all sorts of emotions to soar high between myself and someone else. I felt defeated, rejected, alone, hurt, and angry.
As I wallowed in self-pity, God spoke something to my heart loud and clear…
“You have never learned to truly rest in Me. You know that I am your Shelter, but you have been choosing to stand out in the storm instead of coming to me for safety and rest. You have been choosing to stand out in the storm and complain that you are exhausted and weary. Give up and come inside! I will dry you off, and you will find the much-needed rest and shelter in Me that you need.”Read more
I used to go through the most difficult times of my life without ever telling anyone.
Many years ago I was stuck in pornography and contemplating some drastic decisions. (Ones that would have derailed my life and family.) When people asked me how I was doing, I put a very convincing smile on my face and said, “Great!! How are you?”
They believed me.
Meanwhile, I was buried in shame, addiction, self-hatred, and feeling like God didn’t see me or care that I was in such agony even though I continually begged Him to set me free. Read more
Yesterday my kids and I were shopping. I was in a hurry, so I was very focused on getting what I needed so we could quickly leave.
Suddenly, the woman working there approached me and told me that it was her first day back to work after being gone for 2 weeks. Her husband had a stroke and has brain damage. She was told she had to go back to work yesterday in order to keep her job. She then apologized for telling me all of that, and she started to cry…
I was a bit stunned at first, because I had never said anything more than “Hi” to her in the past, and yet she just walked up to me and shared all of this with me. I told her that it’s totally understandable why she would be having a difficult time at work with everything going on. I told her I would pray for her husband, and she said thanks. Read more
Maybe the people you have been close to seem distant or unavailable.
Maybe it seems as if no one understands what you are going through.
Sometimes the familiarities we are used to having are removed, and God seems silent.
One great thing I have learned (and am still learning as I write this!) is that when we find ourselves seemingly alone in a spiritual wilderness, it is an excellent opportunity to draw closer to Jesus.
This is where deeper intimacy with Him is built.
You have not been abandoned in the wilderness.
Draw in closer to Jesus. Surrender this time to Him. Keep seeking after Him. He will sustain you.
For the last several years, I have been dealing with chronic Lyme and other issues that were misdiagnosed for years. This has limited me in ways that has caused me to feel incredible disappointment, especially in my role as a mom.
You might not know this about me unless you were in my life observing what you can’t often see on the surface. We all have things like that in our lives. (Some people can be very quick to tell me why I’m not healed yet and what I’m doing wrong, which is why I have learned to normally just stay quiet about stuff like this.)
There are times I feel physically ok. During those times, I put so much pressure on myself to accomplish all I can – because I don’t know how long it will last. Read more
There are many different times in life when we need to persevere through situations without seeing where we are going. I was going through a very long season like this a few years ago, and I recently found a journal entry of mine from that time in my life. I wanted to share:
“I feel like I am in a tall field of grass. I’ve been here several times before. The only way to get anywhere is to take one step at a time and just slowly move through it. This is what I deal with when I start tackling the fears I have and the obstacles that have been all around me.
When I try to let my walls down and be vulnerable, I start getting hit by doubt, fear, accusations, more fear, guilt, self-condemnation, my past… and the list goes on and on. Read more
Psalm 55:22 “Cast your cares on the LORD and He will sustain you; He will never let the righteous fall”.
Are you carrying burdens you were not meant to carry?
I’ll be honest. This subject is often a challenge for me, because I tend to carry burdens without even realizing it – until I find myself exhausted. I’m sure there are some people reading this who have dealt with some pretty major things, even just in the last few days, so when I say we need to cast our cares, I don’t say it lightly.
I’m so excited to say that my book is published! I am in awe, reflecting back on all that Jesus has done over the past 10 years. Never in my wildest dreams would I have imagined back then that I would one day write a book about it all.
Longing for Intimacy is now available on: Amazon.com.
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